By Dave White
I can’t process this.
So many things have happened this year: Becoming a father, buying a house, going back to grad school. There’s a ton for me to be happy about as 2012 comes to a close, but this Sandy Hook shooting—something that happened more than 90 minutes from my home is slowing me up.
Usually, at the end of the year, I like to take stock of how I did. Last year: WITNESS TO DEATH was selling well, my wife was pregnant, and I had successfully taken on a new position at work. Stock? Life was good. This year should be the same, I’m continuing to move forward in life.
But Sandy Hook put a halt to all that.
I’m stuck in the muck, and I have to wonder if everyone else feels the same way. Because this is something that shouldn’t be ALL ABOUT ME. Or about me at all. But I can’t help looking at Ben and wondering if he’s going to grow up safe. I can’t help wondering what we, as a nation, are doing.
Tragedies happen. We’re not going stop them all.
But shouldn’t we try?
When something like this occurs, people want to move on, get past it. But how quickly? Do we want to move past this yet? I can’t put on the news. This is all that’s in my head. Rolling over it and over it and over it.
Kids being told to close their eyes before they evacuate.
Life goes on. It always does. But shouldn’t the pace at which it goes on slow down this time? We need to think about this. Process it.
I’m sorry for post this here. I’m sorry for posting this anywhere. I’m rambling and I know it. But I needed to get this down on paper and put it out there. It’s not right to take stock of the year without taking stock of everything. And Sandy Hook affected me.
I think it affected all of us. And I’m not sure where we stand yet.
This is how everyone is feeling, right?