Wednesday, May 11, 2011
Only Two Years Late
Yesterday someone (okay, it was Jay) tipped me to this.
And I realized I better finish it. I’m only two years late with the manuscript.
I’ve been making excuses for quite a while, saying I got sidetracked by TV writing, adapting the Dirty Sweet screenplay, pitching TV shows, writing spec pilot scripts and so on.
But why? Why did I let the novel slip away? Why was I avoiding it and making excuses and thinking that I’d never write another book? After I thought about all the usual bullshit pop psychology stuff (fear of failure, fear of success, etc.,) I realized it was because the first three novels I had published didn’t sell. I got caught up in the idea of trying to write a book that would sell. I went looking for a hook or an edge or something that would get me onto a bestseller list.
Which is crazy. It’s not why I started writing. Sure, I always hoped my books would sell but that was never the driving force. Like pretty much every other writer (of my generation, before you kids got into the whole self-published e-book thing) my definition of success was getting published. And I got that.
So I was rolling along writing another book with some of the same characters exploring another pretty simple theme; do people change? I wanted to get some people together after a long time apart and I thought about a reunion like the movies we were talking about a while ago, The Return of the Secaucus Seven or The Big Chill, something like that, but I couldn’t get this idea out of my head that I wanted to sell some books.
I’d started writing Tumblin’ Dice, I put a couple of scenes from it online as flash fiction and people seemed to like the characters, this reunited rock band playing the nostalgia circuit at casinos and robbing drug dealers and shylocks along the way and then they were going to stop at a casino north of Toronto I call Huron Woods where the band’s first manager from back in the late 70’s is now the entertainment director. And he’s hooking up with some of the bikers from my previous books to push out the mobsters who are running the loan sharking, drug dealing and prostitution at the casino. And to counter all this very organized crime I had the story of the cops from a number of jurisdictions in two countries having a lot more trouble getting organized.
So as I was reading reviews of my previous books that said they had too many characters and were too hard to follow I started to think this one was, too. No matter how much I tried to link all these subplots through the idea of questioning how much people can change, I knew I was writing a book that not many people would like. It was falling between the cracks – there isn’t much action, very little violence, no real mysteries to figure out.
I tried taking out subplots and reducing the number of characters and making the story about a single murder and the cops trying to solve that. Or a couple of murders.
Then, of course, I was writing a book I didn’t like much but one that followed a more proven formula.
So, I finally smacked my head against the wall hard enough to realize that I have, as my mother-in-law would say, stepped in the butter dish here. I have a publisher who is happy to publish my very poor-selling books exactly the way I write them. Even this one that we all know won’t sell any better than the previous three.
This is something that comes up rarely in discussions I’ve followed about self-published e-books, this idea that you can write and make available the exact book you want. No compromises for commercial success (what we old fogies used to call “selling out”) or even censorship. There’s lots of talk about how great it is to be rid of the “gatekeepers” but then most of the e-books I see are within the same fairly narrow range as the books these gatekeepers publish.
And that’s probably because the only kind of success for e-books I see talked about much is sales.
The thing that I like most about e-books is the possibility to publish books that might not otherwise get published or might not get very well distributed; short story collections and anthologies, novellas, books of flash fiction, all kinds of experimental fiction – anything really, for which the sales potential may seem limited.
It’s early days yet and I expect we’ll see a lot more being done with the e-book form.
What kind of things would you like to see with e-books?
Now I have to get back to work and finish this book. I’m thinking about having a big T Rex come in at the end and eat everyone...