The latest release from Snubnose Press dropped last week. Here is an excerpt from Nate Southard's Pale Horses (US|Print|UK) .
HAL
Sheriff
Hal Kendrick was sitting at his breakfast table struggling to remember his wife’s
name and trying to keep the panic down in his gut when his cell phone
rang. The woman he’d loved more than
forty years gave him a smile and then stood as he chewed on the toast and bacon
he’d crammed in his mouth. He knew every contour of her face and every
inch of her body; that certainly wasn’t the problem. Only the woman’s name had disappeared from
his mind. She walked‑‑no, she sauntered;
that was a better word‑‑over to the kitchen counter and scooped up the phone.
Dammit, what was her name?
The
rest of it came easy. He looked down at
his plate‑‑one of the new, plain white ones because the blue designs around the
edge of the old plates confused him sometimes‑‑and mentally ticked off its
contents. That was bacon. The yellow stuff was eggs. Coffee filled his mug. He continued.
His name was Hal Kendrick, and he’d been sheriff of Folk County for
twelve years, now. He was sixty-three
years old, and he lived two miles outside of Broker, Indiana. When he wasn’t tooling around in his county
cruiser, he drove a 1998 Ford Bronco that ran on spit and wishes. His birthday was July 16th, and
his anniversary fell on September 2nd.
He
could remember all of this, every damn lick of it, but his wife’s name escaped
him. Watching her flip open the phone
and hold it to the side of her face, he knew she was sixty-one years old and
had been born and raised in Hamilton, Ohio. Way back in Spring of 1964, he had met her at
his senior prom. She’d arrived with
Timmy Montgomery but left with him. He
knew her favorite color was a lush green, and he knew her favorite song was
“Dawn” by Frankie Valli and the Four Seasons, but her name thrashed outside his
grip like a wild fire hose, refusing capture.
Frustration
welled within him, coiling with the panic like a snake preparing to lash
out. The doctors had told him not to get
frustrated, that it was normal for him to forget things and that the five
milligrams of Aricept he took before bed each night would help keep him from
forgetting more. All the frustration
would do is make him mad. The panic did
nothing but make him impulsive. If he
gave in to either state, he might hurt himself.
At the very least, he’d be too worked up to remember what had slipped
his mind in the first place, so the doctors and his wife had agreed that
frustration and panic weren’t worth a bucket of cold gravy.
But the
doctors didn’t know what this was like.
They had no idea how awful it was to feel completely normal, yet not
know the name of the woman you’d loved the last forty-six years of your life,
to have that name dance just out of reach, taunting you. And they didn’t feel the fear, the aching
horror at the knowledge that it would just get worse and worse until it
swallowed you whole, until you disappeared inside it and didn’t even exist
anymore.
“Hal?”
He
jumped at the sound of her voice. The
sweet note of understanding and patience was there, but it rang with something
else. Concern, maybe? He looked up and saw her holding the phone
out to him. That didn’t make any sense
at all, not unless one of her friends wanted to talk to him. If that was the case though, why hadn’t they
just called his...?
Oh. That was his cell in her hand. Not just any cell phone, either. It was the county phone, and that meant
something bad had happened. How early
was it?
Hal
sighed. Frustrated or not, it was time
to go to work. He wiped his mouth with a
napkin and pushed himself up from the table.
Joints creaked and groaned, and he marveled at how much of a chore even
standing seemed nowadays.
“Denise,”
his wife said as she handed him the phone.
“Dispatch.”
Hal
nodded, letting her know he understood, recognized the name she’d given him,
and knew why Denise was calling. She’d
adapted to the system quickly, and she hadn’t let him down once. Dammit, she deserved so much better.
“I’m
here, Denise,” he said. “What do we have
so early?”
“Morning,
Sheriff. We’ve got a possible homicide. Female adult down on State Road 56 just
outside the Broker limits.”
“Dammit. Possible homicide. Copy that.”
He plucked the pen from beside the yellow notepad that hung next to the
phone, jotted down the location and made a note that State Road 56 came off of Third
Street and headed toward Rising Sun.
“Who do
we have on shift?” he asked.
“Ed
Brown. On shift and en route.”
“That
it?”
“Called
Patrolman Cole. He sounded groggy, but
he’s heading down.”
“Thanks. I’m on my way.”
“Copy
that.”
“Yeah. Thanks, Denise.”
“Don’t
mention it, Sheriff.”
“Too
late.”
He slapped
the cell phone shut and let out a sigh.
Jesus. A possible homicide before
eight in the morning. Looked like he had
the makings of the worst Monday on record.
His
wife gave his shoulder a squeeze, one that was both strong and comforting. “You got it, honey?”
“Yeah.” He placed his spare hand on hers as he
continued scribbling on the pad.
“Then
tell me.”
“Possible
homicide on an adult female just outside Broker limits on 56, which is the road
that comes off of Third and goes to Rising Sun.
Detective Ed Brown and Danny Cole are both on the way.”
“That’s
my baby.” She gave his back a pat.
“I
certainly do try.” He tore the yellow
sheet from the pad and stuck it in the pocket of his shirt. Looking down, he patted his chest. Something was missing. He knew it was something simple, something he
couldn’t leave without, but it avoided him the same as his wife’s name kept
dancing just beyond his reach.
“Your
badge is on the kitchen table,” his wife said in a patient voice. “It’s right beside your plate.”
Realization
rushed in, and he rolled his eyes at how obvious the answer had been. Of course, the badge. For Pete’s sake, he’d even been patting his
chest while he tried to figure it out.
He returned to the kitchen table long enough to grab the shining piece
of metal and pin it over his left breast.
Maybe he should leave it on all the time? One less thing to screw up, and these days
every little thing counted.
“Looks
like it’s time for work,” he said.
“Looks
like. You be safe.”
“Always
am.”
“Call
me if you need help with anything, okay?
A name, a place, part of the job.
Call me. Don’t be afraid to get a
nudge, okay?”
He
nodded. Guilt came charging in, same as
it did every single day he didn’t announce his retirement. Looking into his wife’s eyes, seeing the
understanding and love there, he remembered why he fought so hard to keep at the
job, to do things right. He had to leave
Folk County better
than he’d found it. The last thing he
would dream of doing was to destroy everything and then walk away. Minutes remained on the clock, and he would
keep fighting to make things right until time ran out.
And she
understood, this wonderful woman understood all of it and had decided to
help. She really was amazing.
“I love
you, Hal,” she said.
“I love
you, too.”
“Sara.”
“Sara.”
Hal
leaned in and planted a kiss on his wife’s lips. Then, he hurried out the front door and to
his cruiser before the sad smile on her face made him cry.
***
Ten
minutes later, Hal pulled his cruiser over to the gravel shoulder and parked it
behind Ed Brown’s sedan before checking his appearance in the rearview. He was pleased to find he looked like
himself, or at least how he remembered himself.
His hair didn’t stick out at crazy angles, and the frightened look that
crept into his eyes now and then was nowhere to be found. All things considered, he looked like the picture
of competence, and that was probably better than he deserved.
When he
shoved open his door and stepped onto the shoulder, he found the detective
standing across the two-lane highway, waiting.
The man wore a suit that looked like it belonged in Chicago or at
least Cincinnati, not
on the side of a road in Folk County. His face was impassive, square jaw set and
impossible to read. Some others might
not realize it, but Hal knew that look meant something bad.
“Morning,
Detective,” he said as he crossed the pavement, giving Brown the heads up that
they were keeping things pro this morning.
Not that the detective needed the hint.
The
sound of an approaching motor reached him, and he looked up to see Danny Cole
tooling toward them as casual as you please.
He felt a flare of annoyance, but then he reminded himself that he’d
barely beaten the kid to the scene, and Danny could have been anywhere in the
county when the call came through. By
the time he reached Brown’s side, he felt nice and calm again.
“Wanna
talk to me?”
“Not
really, Sheriff. Think we got more of a
look and see situation goin’ on right at the moment.”
“That
bad?”
But he
already knew. The look had told him
everything.
A car
door opened and slammed, followed by the sound of running footsteps charging
across the hardtop. Hal craned his neck
backward right as Danny Cole let out a, “Well, isn’t this a great way to kick
off a morning?”
The
patrolman, halfway through his twenties with the wide eyes of a kid first
starting to sprout hair down below, clapped his hands together and rubbed them
back and forth. His brown windbreaker
rustled in the morning breeze, and his smile made him look like a bit of a
buffoon. “Sheriff, Detective. Hear we got ourselves a body.”
Hal
searched his memories and realized that after two years on the job, this just
might turn out to be Danny Cole’s first homicide. Good for him.
The kid was one step closer to becoming a jaded old man. Another couple of years and he might stop
smiling all the time.
He gave
Ed a look. “Want to lead the way?”
Ed
turned and started walking through the high grass. A lighter path of stomped blades marked the
detective’s earlier passing, but the going still wasn’t exactly easy. It seemed Hal couldn’t take three steps in a
row without finding some hidden rock or piece of driftwood. Jesus, they were almost a hundred feet from
the Ohio’s
edge. How were they running into
driftwood?
“Who
found the body?” Hal asked.
“Jogger. Maya Dawson. Pretty thing.
Took her statement and sent her home.
I tried to get her a car, but she said she wanted to run. Strange, huh?”
Hal
didn’t bother replying. His legs
swishing through the grass sang a harmony with the river’s muddy water as it
lapped against the shore. No traffic
passed by on 56 to destroy the illusion of peace, and Cole didn’t even let out
a nervous giggle or wisecrack behind him.
Nothing broke the illusion until they drew within forty feet of a stand
of trees and the smell rocked him like an uppercut. The stench of decay was strong and thick,
shoving aside the normal air and setting up shop in its way.
Another
twenty feet and Ed shouted, “Go on, git!”
Hal
understood the command a split second before he heard the dog bark. Then he was out of the grass and looking at
the bare ground within the trees. A
shepherd that had seen better days stood maybe a dozen feet away from them,
teeth bared and maw bloodied. Its growl
tickled the back of his neck, but he reminded himself how dogs could sense
fear. He’d heard that nugget of wisdom
his whole life, and he figured he’d be a bigger buffoon than Cole to tempt fate
by ignoring it.
Besides,
the naked body splayed in the mud behind the dog drew far more attention. At his first glance he could tell it was a
woman. The breasts and smooth curve of
her groin gave that much away. Dirty,
black hair spread out around her head like rotting seaweed. There was surprisingly little blood, and he
supposed if there was anything to be thankful for, that was it.
The dog
had done enough damage, anyway. From his
vantage point, he could tell the animal had chewed away most of her right
hand. The left side of her face was a
ragged tear of loose skin, her teeth and gums exposed. Her throat was a glistening wound, and as he
watched, a buzzard dropped out of the trees and pecked at the hole before the
dog turned and barked. The bird flew
away as if it had been shot at.
Hal
wasn’t surprised to hear Danny puke into the grass behind him. This wasn’t a wreck out on Highway 50. What they were dealing with here‑‑what
patrolman Danny Cole was seeing for the first time‑‑was a dead body, possibly
murdered, that had been gnawed on by a wild dog.
Ed
clapped his hands together and stomped a foot into the dirt. “I said git, dammit!”
The dog
trotted away, growling low in its throat.
“Holy
shit,” Danny said. He sounded like he
still had a little in his mouth.
“Sheriff, you want me to shoot it?”
Hal
spun and gave the Officer a look.
“What?”
“The
dog. Look at what it did. It’s a man eater now, right? I mean, nothing else, it’s got evidence
inside it.”
He
fought the urge to roll his eyes or slap the patrolman senseless. Shoot the dog? What was it with kids? “How about you give animal control a call?”
“Oh my
god.”
Cole’s
voice suddenly sounded hollow, like he’d taken a kick in the belly, and Hal
knew the kid wasn’t so interested in the dog anymore. Danny staggered past him, bent forward
slightly and moving like a man in a dream.
“No. Jesus Christ, No.”
“Officer,
you want to tell us what’s going on?”
Cole
continued, staggering toward the body.
He left the grass, and suddenly his standard issue boots began to sink
into the mud that hugged the Ohio. His hands were fists, knuckles white.
“Dammit,
Officer,” Ed cursed. “Get back in the
grass before you contaminate my scene.”
The kid
backed up a few steps. The bootprints he
left behind were deep.
“Jesus. Thanks for the help, Officer.”
“I…That’s
Colleen.”
“Colleen?”
Ed asked. “Knew her, huh?”
“She’s
Bobby…Oh, shit. She’s Bobby Lothridge’s
wife. Jesus, I played ball with him in
high school.”
That
got Ed’s attention. His head jerked so
fast, Hal thought the man might hurt himself.
“You
played ball?”
“Short
stop.”
“Oh. Baseball.”
The interest drained out of Ed Brown’s face like wax melting in front of
a fire. Hal almost chuckled at the
sudden change, but then Danny was moving forward again, stepping past the grass
and into the soft mud beneath the trees.
“Officer
Cole, I need you to stop.”
“Sheriff,
I know her.”
“I get
that. It doesn’t mean you can stop doing
the job, though.”
“I’m
still‑‑”
“You
take another step, you’ll be destroying my crime scene,” Brown said. “That’s the only thing you’ll be doin’, and I
ain’t about to have it. Take a step
back.”
“Sheriff,
I‑‑”
“Do
what Detective Brown says, please.”
“Dammit!” Danny spun, flinging his arm wide like he was
trying to punch a ghost only he could see, and then he stomped back into the
grass. The sudden movement set the dog
barking again, and the patrolman drew his sidearm as he whirled around to face
it. “You fucking thing!”
“Officer Cole!”
Hal
felt the words explode from his throat, rocketing up from deep in his gut, and
he saw them hit the patrolman like a cupped hand to the ear. The kid froze, sidearm raised but not aimed,
and slowly turned to face him, a new buffoonish look pasted across his face.
“Will
you please return to your cruiser and request animal control? Right now, that would be the most help.” He watched as a series of emotions played
across the young officer’s face.
Confusion gave way to anger, and desperation followed close behind
before collapsing into a resigned sort of sadness.
“Yes,
sir.” Danny said. The patrolman turned
and started walking back the way they’d come.
He moved slowly, like a broken-hearted schoolboy.
“I’m
sorry for your loss,” Hal said. “She was
a friend of yours, and this isn’t how anybody should have to see a friend.”
“Right.” The kid nodded a little and kept trudging up
the hill. Hal watched him go, refusing
to turn away until he saw Danny reach the road.
The patrolman waited as a single pickup rattled past, and then he
disappeared from view.
“Well,”
Ed muttered, “Looks like somebody’s one step closer to being a bona fide cop.”
“He
thought he could be eager and work a murder.
Last thing he expected was for it to be a friend of his.”
“So I
should cut him a little slack?”
“If he
keeps doing the job, I don’t see the harm.”
“Right. Well no offense meant, I don’t want his
virgin ass near my scene. Maybe the
kid’s eager, but maybe he’s a headless nail we’re gonna be trying to pull out
somewhere down the road.”
“Got
it. How many hands you need.”
“Think
you can get me two?”
“Sure.”
“Then
two.”
“Coming
right up.” He grabbed his cell phone
from his pocket and brought up the number for dispatch, put a call through to
Denise. When she asked who he wanted, he
requested Crosby and Philips, both of whom would be starting their regular
shifts in four hours regardless. They
wouldn’t mind the overtime.
As he
slapped his cell shut and stuffed it back into his pocket, it occurred to him
how unfair it was that he remembered how to use the damn thing when he’d lost
his wife’s name. His dispatchers and
patrolmen, their schedules, he knew all of that. Ask him his wife’s name or the way home,
however, and he might draw a blank. If
he hadn’t remembered the GIS the county had installed on all cruisers a few
years back, he might still be wandering the county’s back roads. The whole mess angered him, as did the
knowledge that there wasn’t a thing he could do about it. Like it or not, this was his life. Or what remained of it. Goddamn Alzheimer’s.
Pulling
a handkerchief from his pocket and pressing it to his nose, he approached the
body, remaining careful to avoid any footprints he saw in the dirt, though most
of them appeared to belong to the dog.
Ed had already closed in, and now the man crouched beside the body,
pointing here and there with a pen when he wasn’t jotting down notes on a
notepad. How the man stood the stench
was anybody’s guess. Looking at the
wreck the canine had made of the body, he was shocked at how little blood
covered the area. When he mentioned it
to Ed, the stocky man gave him a nod.
“Got
that right. Definitely a dump. Appears Colleen…What did Cole say her last
name was? Lothridge? Anyway, looks like she died somewhere else.”
“Great. Violent death?”
“Got
some bruising here and there along the arms.
Pooch over there screwed up the throat, so if she was strangled we’ll
have to hope the coroner can tell us.”
He pointed at her lips with the pen.
“Call me an optimistic, but I’m thinkin’ this is our biggest clue right
here.”
Hal
stepped closer and squatted. His old
eyes needed a little help, but squinting brought everything into focus clear
enough, and he didn’t like what he saw.
“Burns.”
“Yup. Looks like we got us a dead girl on
meth. Fun, huh?”
“Sweet
Lord. Don’t let Officer Cole in on that,
okay? It stays under our hat until the
autopsy confirms it. We thinking
overdose?”
“I’m
still thinking violent. If I....” He
slapped gloves on his hands and gingerly lifted her head. Not much, barely more than an inch. He peeked at the back of the dead woman’s
skull and then lowered her head.
“You
sure‑‑”
“Already
got pictures on the digital, Hal. No
worries.”
“So?”
The
detective shook his head. “Lotta blood
black there, and I don’t wanna poke around, but I know a blunt impact when I
see one. Our girl was bludgeoned.”
“Dammit,”
Hal said. The word tasted terrible. “Husband, maybe. This Bobby guy. Finds out his wife’s smoking meth, they have
a fight....”
“I’m
leaning that way too, Hal. Probably been
leaning that way a while longer than you have.”
“No
need to be cocky.”
Ed gave
him a nod and then stood, brushing non-existent dirt from his knees. “No hair off my ass. I got another concern might be worth
following up on.”
“Yeah?”
“How
far you reckon we are from the town limits?”
Hal
craned his neck toward the roadway and then followed it upriver. He noticed Danny starting back down the hill,
but he ignored him.
“Two
hundred yards, maybe.”
“About
what I thought. By any chance, you
remember who got this land in their divorce about ten years back?”
Hal
felt a sharp prick of fear at the idea of needing his memory. Ed was a friend and not just a fellow
officer, and he trusted the detective more than anybody else in the county
offices, but Ed was a good cop‑‑a damn good cop‑‑and the man couldn’t just sit
on knowledge like The Sheriff Has Alzheimer’s.
The thought stabbed at him like a gleaming blade.
“Sheriff?”
“I’m
thinking.” And to his surprise, he
didn’t have to think long. Another
nugget of trivia leapt into his thoughts, and suddenly he knew exactly who
owned the land. In the next moment, a
cold, hollow kind of dread crept into his gut and settled there like a sleeping
Copperhead. The feeling that bad news on
its way hovered like a blanket of black storm clouds, ready to erupt with a
crack of thunder.
“It’s
Regina Hunt’s property isn’t it?”
Ed
nodded, the makings of a grin playing on the corners of his mouth. It was the look of a kid who doesn’t want to
get into a fight, but wouldn’t mind watching a pair of hicks go at each other
with pool cues for a while. Hal might
have taken offense if he hadn’t spent so many years as Ed Brown’s friend.
“We
heard anything from Korey lately?” Ed asked.
“He’s
been pretty quiet. I think Aurora tanked
him about a month ago after a good brawl, but I haven’t heard anything since.”
“Well,
this oughta make up for lost time.”
“You
think this is something he could have done?”
Ed gave
him a shrug, the look on his face saying he’d prefer not to commit. “I don’t like to put nuthin’ past
nobody. Job won’t let me take another
path.”
“Want
to talk to him?”
“I
would love to, Sheriff.”
Danny
coughed into his fist as he approached.
Hal didn’t know if the kid was trying to get the last part of his breakfast
up and out or just announcing his return, and he didn’t much care. Other things had jumped up to demand his
attention.
“Talk
to who?” Danny asked. “Need me to pick
somebody up?”
Hal
glanced at Ed and saw the burly detective break into a full grin before turning
back to Colleen Lothridge’s body. “You
remember where Korey Hunt lives?”
“We got
a suspect?”
“How
about we say ‘Person of interest?’”
“Whatever. Just tell me when you want him at the
station.”
“How
about two hours?”
“Sure
thing, Detective. I can do it right now,
if you want. I don’t want to just let
some piece of garbage think he can get away with this sort of thing.”
“Nobody’s
getting away with this,” Hal said. You
just pick up Hunt and be cool about it.”
“Just
feel like I owe‑‑”
“You
owe her a clean investigation, Danny.
Clean and thorough and by the book.”
Hal
held the kid’s eyes until Danny finally gave in and nodded. He could tell by the wounded look on Cole’s
face that he didn’t like it one bit, that he’d rather be in the thick of
things, maybe kick in a few teeth before slapping on a set of cuffs, but that
was fine so long as Danny did as he was told.
The kid
muttered something along the lines of, “Sure thing,” and then started back up
the hill. Hal watched him climb halfway
before turning to Ed.
“You’re
good here?”
“Right
as rain. I’ll do what I can before my
help comes.”
“Great. Figure you want to be there when I tell Bobby
Lothridge the news?”
“Yep. Better than waiting for a warrant any day.”
“That’s
the Detective Ed Brown I know.” Was
it? He couldn’t be sure.